A Prissoner of my own Job

Hello everyone, I'm hoping there might still be someone out there.

I have returned, but I think this will not be for long.

It's been quite some time since I last updated my deviant art account, and that also means I haven't done any pieces of art lately (you have no idea how much I miss that...).

In this moment of my life, at my almost 29 years old (damn... time goes frightenly fast) I'm working on a big well paid company as a "graphic designer"... Hurray...

The truth is I'm not happy with this job, it' so linear, I spend so much time in here and it's like 3 hours affar (2 hours without traffic, very rare though...), some of my work companions try to cheer me up by telling me: "c'mon do an effort, if you work hard enough you might get to become a Product Manager!!" ...a Product Manager? I didn't study and practiced visual artistic skills for endless nights just to move numbers and coordinate people, I hate and always hated that kind of stuff...

I'm going the wrong way, I know that, but it's not as easy as resigning my job. Because after all, I spent months searching for jobs, and not just any job, a well payed job.

Basicly, I'm sick of this, I'm desperate, I don't want to be someone's "catalogue maker", I want to do art, I want to draw my stories, I want to do my own characters, I want to build my worlds out of my head... but how? Is there anyone out there who can help me? A word of two  would do... I feel stuck and a little push might be enough.

I don't even know if anyone will ever read this, but hey... miracles could happen, don't they?

Thanks for readding.

Cheers...